The Counting Down Holidays Torture
July 22nd, 2008 by mad-ijetAt last I’m almost free from this damn long holiday torture. Just left 1 week and 3 days to go. After this long holiday, I will continue my studies for 3rd semester. But damn, start semester 3 full with a lot of activity.
Damn, not a good start for new semester. Because my name is already listed in playoffs competition in GMI level for ROBOCON 2009. Before my 2nd semester end, I’ve been called by GMI Mechatronics HoS. They told me that, they select me for ROBOCON 2009 competition. Man, I was shock and at the same time I feel excited plus a little bit of scared because me and other lucky GMI students is a pioneer for GMI representative in ROBOCON competition.
So the HoS told that there will be a 1st meeting after 2nd semester final exam. The 1st meeting is the briefing for which lecturer will conduct the students, gives a group, and gives a simple task for holiday. After briefing, I feel uneasiness. Why? Because the other lucky student which involve for ROBOCON is a high GPA marks for their 1st semester. Overall, not overall but all of them except me got more than 3.00 and above. But my 1st semester GPA is only 2.63. Damn, I’ve been surrounded by a top and high-marks students.
That’s not lucky for me, but that’s was disaster. In my class there are other students also got 3.00 and above, but they were not selected by GMI. Why? So after the 1st briefing, I go meet my lecturer who teach me in 2nd semester and also conduct the students for ROBOCON.
I ask him, how the student selection run. He said, it is based on student 1st semester GPA. I ask him again which GPA is need to get qualified. He said, 3.00 and above to get involve for ROBOCON. What the heck? I told him that, my 1st semester GPA was 2.63. He was shocked and ask me is it true. He looks weird, and he ask me how I got selected. I said, I don’t know and I explain him the reason I ask him how I’ve been selected, but it looks like he ask me back.
At the same time there is other lecturer who listen our conversation, and he also shocked. He also didn’t believe about my 1st semester GPA. My lecturer and his colleagues discuss how this case happen, and they told me that they don’t know how the hell it happen. So I ask them, is it the selection is done by other lecturer who teach me when I was 1st and 2nd semester. They said yes, the student name were select by the lecturer who teach a subject on 1st and 2nd semester.
They also said that maybe my name is proposed by other lecturer who thinks that I’ve got potential. Hmm potential? But why my GPA not good enough and why the other lecturer don’t choose other GMI students who gets GPA marks 3.00 and above for their 1st semester? The question is why? Why me? I ask this to them. They remind me that GMI prospect is learning more on practicals. They add that, they found that I was good in practicals and technical theories.
They told me that I was lack on communication, they give an example like group presentation or task. Mostly in technical part, where you have to explain or find information in deeply how the systems works, how the technology works, how programs running, how the certain gadget is manufactured, why brand A is better than brand B, the difference between old and new technology, what technology embedded in computer or gadget parts and etc…..That part is where I always handle and enjoy. For the other part, I always give the other students who goods in formal speech.
Yeah, no doubt I’m lack on communication, it is because I’m not good in sociality, this happen also came from my strict family who not give me easy outing activity with my friends when I’m still school student. So to fill my free wake time, I read all about things I want to know like about cars, about computers, about gadget, about ships, about robots or whatever that came across in my mind. Whatever source such as books, magazines, internets, watch documentaries. For me, I can live alone but there must be something that can prevent me become crazy or easy-angry.
Yeah sometimes, well not sometimes but everytimes I feel empty and lonely. I’m also human not robot, human need other human to talk or to spend the time full with other excitement activity such as go to cinema or hang out or etc with friends. But I guess, my social life in already closed to me. For me as going adult, meet new or old people is to find or get an opportunity for jobs. Jobs mean get the money, right now I still live with my family because I’m still studying. But how long will you live with your family? And how long it will takes to get you become full-independent? And have a live without getting hand from other people. I’m not money beggars, but I may beg a job from other people as long as I find or get the halal-money with all my sweat or blood.
So the time is still counting and goes on, and the heart is still pumping the blood. As this is still happen, I must find a ways that keep my body energetic if not I can’t study or work. To keep energetic, I have to take a good care about my food, drinks, sleep and whatever that body needs. And speak about food and drinks, today I can still having breakfast, lunch or dinner without problems because I still live with my family. The question is how about when I live on my own? Can I guarantee that I can eats and drinks well? No one knows the answer, but the answer is only I can do it or make it. So I must study, get a good marks, get a jobs and I can live with what I dreamed or imagine. What I dreamed or imagine is become my inspirational to success in my life, and as the time still counting on I hope it won’t down my spirit.
As the new semester or 3rd semester is coming, I feel happy because is already too long for me become a numb or dumb for 2.5 month. I hope that I can spend this last week in good and happy. Because after that I will go off to war. Yeah a war. A war to get a good marks.